Sorry for not posting in a while, sort of been doing some inner searching as well as just trying to hang with my loved ones as much as possible before I have to head back to university. Either I'm a little late to the game on this or right on time, either way I don't care to be frank, but I figured it would only be expected that I try to talk about New Years Resolutions.
Every year prior to this one I never gave them any thought whatsoever, I just figured blegh it's just some stupid thing people do to look good for others around the holidays, and that's exactly what the "I'm gonna lose weight!" kind of resolutions are for. After all the things I experienced with starting to finally act like an adult I figured this would be a good time to start taking this sort of thing more seriously and actually put some thought into some ways I want to better myself.
Obviously I want to try and get in shape and eat healthier, those are life long things I'm always going to struggle with, picking those sorts of things would be a cop out for me personally. After really reflecting I've decided that my resolution is to follow through with plans more consistently. That may sound really general and stupid but for nearly all of my life, I've had trouble with it whether it be something as simple as making plans to go to lunch with a person or something as big as trying to make a lifestyle change and exercise regularly. When I make a plan to practice for an afternoon or study or work out three days a week I'm going to be damn certain that I do it. There has been tons of times in the last two years alone where I had an idea conceptualized in my head and I just went "eh whatever I'll do it later," and forgot about it. This has caused stress numerous times because I didn't practice enough for my recital, I didn't do my homework on time and I upset my friend because I cancelled on them numerous times for no reason. The biggest reason I'm choosing this is because for the first time ever, EVER I did not pass a class and received an unsatisfactory mark on my college transcript. I had enrolled in an American History class because it was required for my generals on my degree at CSU. The class was not difficult by any stretch of the imagination; it was merely a lecture class with four tests and four quizzes. I just stopped going to the class. Just stopped, whatever. Why? Not because it was too hard, but because the class was handled by the professor in a way I don't find efficient. Yes it was frustrating because I never knew what was going to be on tests and often times the homework did not line up with the lectures, but I had made a commitment by keeping that class on after the add/drop period at my school and I did not respect that. Now my GPA has dropped from a 3.8 to a 3.0 and it's likely I'll have less money next semester because of it. It greatly disappoints me that something this severe is what has made me realize that I have trouble committing to things. So my plan is to just follow through with all plans, no matter how small and hold myself to a higher standard when doing so.
